i'm an attractive blonde in her 40s who is quite intellectual and analytical. i guess you could say that i am seeking some romance mixed with intellectualism.



i'm not exotic or the high heels type, but i'm not masculine either. i'm like a cross between anne heche and ellen degeneres with some young patty duke thrown in for good measure.



i recently developed a mad, all-consuming crush on an older woman who, as it turned out, was not "that way." i so wanted to run my hands through her hair, touch her face and kiss her, but i couldn't. i knew i couldn't. she wanted to go to disneyland and meet me for coffee, but i couldn't contain my romantic passion for her. too bad.



so i'm seeking a pretty, feminine, clean, soft, intellectual woman who would actually want me to touch her hair, caress her face and kiss her. she would want me to be romantic with her, although i have only had a couple of make-out sessions with other women. i have never had a full-blown sexual experience with another woman, and i'm not entirely sure if i would feel comfortable doing it. but above the waist with the right woman, i have great longings, particularly lately.



please be very smart, very clean, unattached, emotionally available without cigarettes, drugs, or an excess of alcohol. you are caucasian, probably blonde (but not necessary), pretty, not fat but can still be curvy. you're not a super-model. you're not butch, and you like to wear pearls... maybe even with a t-shirt.



anyway... such are my fantasies for the moment.